EnchiPants: a blog about the traumatic life of a nerdy girl who grew into a broken woman
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Monday Mark – 34.5 & 35.0
34.5 – For Last Week’s MM: Scarcity dictates what’s meaningful. When you are alone, a relationship feels meaningful.When you’re in a relationship, time to yourself feels meaningful. When you are overworked, time off feels meaningful.When you have plenty of downtime, work feels meaningful. The scarcity never gets solved, it simply changes form. What feels scarce to…
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After Group Journal Prompts 2
Last Saturday I posted some journal prompts from the women’s group I attend and got the first one done, but didn’t have the bandwidth or time to get to the other 2. I will make a solid attempt to do those now. Prompt 2: Why are you angry? As I mentioned before, I have a…
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Monday Mark – 33.5 & 34.0
33.5 – For Last Week’s MM: The people who wait until they’re “ready” never are. The people who just start realize they could have been “ready” any time they wanted. At some point, preparation becomes its own form of procrastination. Just do the thing. What have you been preparing for longer than you’d like to admit?…
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After Group Journal Prompts
So, I attend a weekly women’s group call for the Recovery Program we (The Boyfriend and myself) are in. I cherish these calls, because it helps me to not feel so alone, gives me other women’s perspectives on what we are all experiencing, and I just… friggin LOVE these resilient and wonderful women, coach included.…
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Monday Mark – 32.5 & 33.0
32.5 – For Last Week’s MM: Your life simply reflects what you’ve prioritized. What you’ve achieved tells you what you were willing to suffer for.What you failed at tells you the opposite. What does your life tell you about your priorities? Do you wish it were different? Pick one small action that reflects the priorities you…
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Monday Mark 31.5 & 32.0
31.5 – For Last Week’s MM: Everyone has something to teach you, even if neither of you realizes it. The catch is: it’s not their job to show you, it’s your job to figure out what you can learn. “Attention is the rarest and purest form of generosity.” – Simone Weil Who in your life might…
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One Week Later…
It’s been a week since I received the last of the intensive part of Ketamine therapy (6 sessions in 2 weeks). Unfortunately, if I don’t hear back directly from the clinic, I’ll be waiting twice as long for the start of my “Maintenance” phase (6 weeks instead of 3). It is what it is, of…
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Monday Mark – 30.5 & 31.0
30.5 – For Last Week’s MM: Your distractions aren’t random. What you reach for when things get uncomfortable tells you what you’re trying not to feel. Avoidance feels like relief in the moment, but will only strengthen the feeling you’re trying to escape. What do you reach for when you feel uncomfortable? What are you trying…
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Monday Mark – 29.5 & 30.0
29.5 – For Last Week’s MM: Goals are the actions you think about but don’t do.Habits are the actions you do but don’t think about. Better goals require a lot of effort and change little.Better habits will change everything. What do you already do that moves you towards your goals? What moves you further from them?…
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Ketamine Therapy 2 & 3
I’ve been pretty tired and somewhat busy, but I’m back to talk about my last 2 Ketamine therapy sessions, to the best of my ability. As I said in the last post, it is really difficult to accurately describe how they went. For Thursday’s session, I changed the music to Tibetan singing bowls, figuring that…
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Ketamine Therapy (1)
Whew. I have to say, first off, that the Ketamine therapy was intense AF. Mind you, I haven’t tried many “recreational” drugs to compare: pot when I was young for a few years (it makes me sick), mushrooms twice (without much effect), and Ketamine was experienced for the first and only time during a surgery…
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Monday Mark – 28.5 & 29.0
28.5 – For Last Week’s MM: The cost of inaction is often much higher than the cost of the wrong action. When you can’t decide, ask yourself: Which option minimizes future regrets? What part of your life is on autopilot because you’re afraid of choosing wrong? What are you actively avoiding by not deciding? Make a…
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